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Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Changes in Altitude

So.. since last post, I have moved to Saint Louis, MO.  I am not dating anyone... not sure why.  But, I do have a good job and I am Loving it here.  Getting back to myself a bit more every day.  Although yesterday (Valentine's Day) was pretty hard to get through.

I am trying to get a HashTag going so that I can be found online by using the tag - so #IamGraywalker is what I am trying to use.  Yes, this post is an attempt to make that more searchable. :D

I'll try to fill this out a bit more with updates and other items shortly... stay tuned.
Probably need to update on my getting a land loan, truck breaking down, buying a car, adjusting to winter here, etc...

Yes, the Hashtag is working.  Anyone smart enough can find this post.  Probably the best place to contact me is on Facebook - http://www.facebook.com/bobby.kearan - PM something a bit more complex than "hi." and I will likely respond.

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Preconceived notions

Paraphrased something I read today... "I have no patience for fake people, whiny-little-bitches or liars. People whose idea of a vigorous discussion or argumentation is to belittle people rather than defend your argument. People who are into flag banning, flag burning or denying someone else's rights. People who support tyranny, racism, discrimination or suffering. People who align themselves against U.S. veterans or our founding fathers. People whose idea of fun involves hate-baiting, divisiveness or general ass-hat-like behavior."

Someone commented on that, again paraphrased, "yeah, I can't stand liberals either."

Which took me by surprise, because I was thinking, "yeah, this guy can't stand conservatives."

I suppose that goes to show we each have our own pre-conceived notions.  Only, I think mine can be shown to be true a lot easier than the other guy's.

"Fake people, whiny-little-bitches or liars" certainly makes me think 'conservative.'  Damn near everything they (the public faces of the conservative movement) say is easily proven to be wrong or an outright lie. And "Fake People" - Donald Trump, Sarah Palin, Scott Walker... come on... 

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Distilling Patience

I'm not sure who or what is in control of my life right now, but I am fairly certain, for better or worse, it is not me.
If it were up to me, right now, I would be living in the Saint Louis, MO area, enjoying a more social life, pagan shops, comic book shops, role playing games (pen and paper), board games, liquor in grocery stores and all kinds of nice things not found in my current state. I would be dating a good, fairly amazing, woman.
For whatever reason, I have been unable to find a company that will hire me - lack of college degree, no certifications, whatever reason - despite my skills and years of experience actually doing the job.
Now, I am fairly well stuck, due in no small part to an accrued debt load. I, we, made purchases and plans based on an expected fiscal influx that, despite assurances, never came through. So, now, even with assets in my favor, I am afraid that it will still be months before I am somewhat secure.
I am in the habit of expecting things to happen on my timeline - which is a lot more quick and efficiently than they actually do.  Many other people seem to be just lethargic in everything they do - walking, working, etc.
I am being forced to slow down, be patient, be alone and have nothing to do but think and reflect.  Yep, this stinks.
So, now I am thinking there had better be something good to come out of this.  The good woman I referred to earlier has stopped communicating with me because I am not in Saint Louis yet.... through no fault of my own that I can see.
I have found, quite possibly the root of some of my health issues and am working on getting treatment - although that is also going too slow and too frustrating for my tastes.  I am depending on others to get it resolved, but... slow.
Every time I start planning for what will happen when x gets done, I have to stop and remind myself that the people who need to get x done don't ever seem to have any motivation to do so and it will take for frikkin ever to get done.
... I just wish I could take over and get it done... but, honestly, I don't know how.
... and then, I have to work - but no place I need to go to to get stuff done is open after I get off work, or before I get to work.  So, I have to take off work to get anything started, much less done. 

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Leaves and Lives

I burst forth into life, clinging to the limb high in a tree.
I grew, gaining life and giving life
doing my part.
I held on to the limb through high winds
through blazing heat, ups and downs
Over time I grew tired.
My green faded.
I learned to let go.
I became a leaf on the wind.
Spiraling down, soaring up
wherever the breeze pushed me.
I slowly descended, wondering
what would I find below?
I settled onto the river,
dancing on the water as it babbled,
flowed, eddied, crashed and rushed.
I learned to go with the flow,
going where fate may take me,
overcoming the rocks in the river.
Dancing ever slower.
I realize I am sinking into the water.
The water pulls me down even as it
fills me up.
I shall go under, settle and decay.
My wish is that I have become rich enough
in my life
That the leaves of the trees downstream
will be a little more green,
live a little bit longer, their trees stronger,
because I lived before them.

- today's motorcycle meditation

Saturday, October 31, 2015

Yeah, I don't like being required to listen to Prayers

So, this has been a while coming.  Recent Facebook conversations have got me thinking about why I feel offended by being required to listen to, if not participate in, Christian prayer in order to attend just about any supposedly public event.
I've been thinking - because an un-examined position is not a good one - about my reactions.  Not even sure this is a good idea... but...

What offends me?  The repeated idea that Their way is the only way.  That people are powerless, needing to be possessed by some foreign spirit to even be able to walk - or do anything, win a sports competition, get over grief, make more money, etc.  That a loving, all powerful deity is also a petty, vengeful one - kind of like an abusive boyfriend that will kill you if you don't love them back.  That it is better to believe - or go through the motions of really believing - just in case it is true that this loving deity will send you off to be tortured for eternity if you don't.  That people are basically cruel, evil beings in need of saving from themselves.  That a lot of the same people Praying in public are 'sinning' - often in very nasty, harmful ways - in private.  That a lot of people Praying for peace, love and understanding in public are also racist, hateful, mean spirited people - mostly in private, but even in public.  Hypocrisy in general.  I won't get into the anti-science and 'bible-based' bigotry.

I understand - from a first hand point of view - that if you seriously believe it, that you see wanting other people to believe as you do is the kind thing to do.  I know it may be comforting to think some omnipotent, benevolent God is really paying attention to everything all the time - even you and your quest for a parking space.  I know how hard it is to have that Faith stripped from you.  Its not something I would wish on anyone. 

So, I don't go around trying to convince Christians of what I know to be true.  I don't try to force anyone to change their religion or open themselves to spiritual possession.  I don't require anyone to meditate, take a shamanic journey, make offerings to Cernunnos​ or anything else to participate in any event or gathering. 

Is a little reciprocal consideration too much to ask?

I don't 'cleverly' give people copies of "Conversations with God" or "Illusions."   I don't invite people to a free dinner - without telling them it requires sitting through a presentation of The Secret before or during eating.  I don't go around suggesting everyone get into Healing through Shamanism.

(Feel free to click the links and buy some books or videos if you are interested.)

What do I believe? I answered that a while back on another blog (click to read).  The post before that one is good too.  So, not getting into that here.

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Vista Print Yard Sign Tutorial

How to make a Vista Print Yard sign

Step one - go to Vista Print's Yard Sign page (Click Here)
  "Browse our Designs" is already selected.

Step two - pick a size by selecting the circle next to 'small' or 'large'
  Click Continue.

Step three - Select design.  I selected the "Phone / Other * Company Name * company message" design with the blue frame for this tutorial.

Step four - fill in the text you want :
    Click Next.

Step five - Click Edit on the 'other back side options'
  It should show the same design for the back.  Click Next.

Step six - Check the box beside 'I have reviewed and approve my design' and then click Next.

Step seven - You can sign in, create an account or click "Continue as Guest"

Step eight - Select your quantity - whatever you can afford or are willing to spend.

  Click Continue.

Step nine - Click the circle beside the free stand (or not, up to you.)

Step ten - Click "Go to Cart" to skip the offers for more stuff to buy.

Step eleven - Review the cart and click Check Out and pay.  The sign should be on the way!

I will be offering a custom design a little bit later.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

The Confederate Flag

I grew up seeing the Southern Cross confederate flag (a stretch of one of many confederate flags) as a symbol of Southern Pride, doing the right thing, having a little fun - and the Dukes of Hazzard kind of good ole boys - never meaning no harm.  For me, and many poor white folk in the south, it did not mean racism.  It meant having a little pride when there was not much to be proud of.  "We may have been beat, but we're not beaten."  A symbol of "when you get knocked down, stand right back up!"

Now, I realize that all the talk about the Civil War was fought over State's Rights and Taxes and other stuff is, although founded in some actual issues of the time, just not really the case.  Slavery was the cause for the Southern states.
"Our position is thoroughly identified with the institution of slavery-- the greatest material interest of the world. Its labor supplies the product which constitutes by far the largest and most important portions of commerce of the earth. These products are peculiar to the climate verging on the tropical regions, and by an imperious law of nature, none but the black race can bear exposure to the tropical sun." - from A Declaration of the Immediate Causes which Induce and Justify the Secession of the State of Mississippi from the Federal Union.
 That reality was, and is, hard to come to terms with.  It goes against what I believed growing up, what I was told and taught.

The same with the Confederate Flag - the Southern Cross flag, which is a stretched out version of the battle flag of Virginia. We didn't see it as meaning what it does to so many.  Coming to terms with the fact that it DOES represent Hate, Racism and Terror for a very large number of people was difficult.  It is used by the KKK - a white christian hate group.  It was created for that exact reason - to instill terror in people of color.  For many people, it brings up images of burning crosses in yards, white hoods with weapons in hand, nooses, lynchings.  The Southern Cross flag is to people of color what the Swastika is to the Jewish people.  They are often waved together!

Knowing what it means to people of color, I can no longer imagine that it is anything but a symbol of terror.  It has been hard losing what I thought it was... what it meant to me.  But I could no more fly or defend the Southern Cross any more than I could fly or defend the Nazi flag.

Getting other people who grew up like I did to see that, to realize the facts and to support removing the flag from state flags and stop flying it or wearing it - that is going to be hard.  You have to realize that for many of them it really does not represent slavery and hate.  It represents at least a little something to be proud of, resilience, heritage, not being held down - hope.  Destroying the symbols of people's childhoods doesn't make for a good basis for building relationships.

It is hard to realize that when you fly the Southern Cross flag, you are, even inadvertently, supporting things like this:

On the other side, it is important to realize that the Confederate Flag does represent Heritage and Southern Pride to a lot of people who are not racist.  If you are looking to change hearts and minds, then desecrating memorials and graves is not the way to go about it.  It would be better to help people realize what the flag means to those who have been terrorized by people waving it.  Help people realize that just because they think of it one way, doesn't mean that other people see it the same way - and that sometimes it is worth giving up a symbol in order to not cause distress to others.

There are good people who really do not realize what the flag symbolizes for people of color.  Losing a beloved reminder of their childhood, a piece of their pride, an image of resilience, is not going to be easy.

It can't be about what race has to be humble and apologize for past behavior.  It has to be about coming to terms with the past, coming to an understanding of how things are and working together to move forward.

... on "how things are"... It doesn't take much to see that harsh laws are applied differently to black people than they are to white people.  The question is how to stop it!  From the obscene treatment of the Scott Sisters to the unequal application of Stand Your Ground, the ... the bullshit is systemic. Poor white people are often victims of our blatantly corrupt legal system, but not as often or too the same degree.

When we come to the realization that our we are not actually that different, that "Race" is propaganda, segregating ourselves based on the color of our skin is just plain silly and start to join together against the injustices that harm us all - that is when we start to make a difference.